Let’s see.. I’ve missed almost 2 weeks. Forgive me.
Today’s Gem: NO MATTER WHAT, BE HAPPY!!!!
If you’ve read my previous posts, you’re aware that I announced my pregnancy and then miscarried about 2 weeks later. By far, the hardest thing I’ve gone through in my adult life. I’m still standing though! Believe it or not, I’m in such a good place. I wasn’t expecting to be happy for a long time because I wanted to be a mother SO badly but God’s grace and mercy is something to shout about!!
Losing my baby left me feeling depressed, broken, and very inadequate as a woman. The first week, I did two things: cried & slept. I took a 3hr train ride to my parents house and stayed for a week because there is nothing better to me than hugs from my parents (or boyfriend) when I’m down. We ended up stopping by my aunts house and through a much needed conversation, I discovered that she had been through two miscarriages in her lifetime. I wouldn’t wish a miscarriage on anyone but it was great to be able to talk to people who had been through it before.
As the weeks went on, the numbness wore off and I began to feel hopeful again. Through faith in God, a lot of prayer & crying, conversation, and meditation, I slowly emerged as a new version of myself.
I am the happiest I have been in a long time. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still sad about losing my child, but I am thankful that I got to experience such joy and excitement to begin with. I know that in due time, I will be a great mom. For now though, I will just try my best to be a great person.
Bad things happen in life but if we dwell on the negative, we will miss out on so many blessings and reasons to be happy. Why stress over things/situations that we truly have no power over? Yes, it’s so much easier to say it but all I ask is that you try. Try to find happiness in every situation because it is far too easy to get caught up in the bad.
So take some advice from Simon & Pumba; Hakuna Matata 🙂
Until next time: Be you. Do you. LOVE YOU! ❤